December --- Merry Xmas

I miss you Cara. I miss you every day. But there is nothing I can do but give you space till you want to talk to me. Erin is engaged finally. I have been doing lots of photography work. But I dont even know what to say anymore. Other than I miss you. It was not like you responded often to my texts but just knowing I could send you little things and see how things were going. Oh well, this time of year always wears me down. Someday hopefully you will understand. Love Dad

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