Over a month

 It has been over a month since I sat down to write you. I have thought about doing it so many times but it hurts to even think about it. I will write and you will never see and don't care. I know you talk to Erin via text from time to time and share stuff so I am glad that you are trying there at least. 

So in a month so much has happened. I met my Uncle Steve and my biological father Richard. Two polar opposites. But it was so nice to put more pieces of the puzzle together. But also hurt. Knowing that you think all this bad was because of me but that I was at least there trying all those years. I am sorry that I did not do everything right and did not see things a certain way. I do love you still and always will. I just having this family come into my life and seeing all these things. Uggh it is so frustrating. I wish you had been here to talk to about all of it like I was able to with Erin. 

So back to this month, so Erin has moved back in with me because her mom has had to get a smaller place. It is nice having her back in the house. Someone , an adult to talk to, someone that is not my dog. :)

Erin and I went to Dragon Con. We had a blast. It was so amazing. Met so many cool people. I met my favorite author when i was a kid. We met Mark Meer who was as cool as expected. It was so cool. Just a super fun experience. Again not sure how much of that kind of stuff you would have been into but I think you might have enjoyed it. 

Was a fun trip to say the least.

It looks like I won't be moving for another year. I was really hoping to move out west but now I think I will be around these parts at least one more year if my homeowners dont try and sell. Maybe two. 

Well know that I think of you always. When you finally see these. I want you to know that I never stopped loving your or thinking about you. It was every day , always. 

Love Dad